i give up on building my hopes then then having them knocked back down again, i waited all day today to see if i could stay with laurah tonite and by 6pm its a no and she couldnt even be bothered to ring i had to ring her bk =[ i started crying cuz she said b4 hand 'if u dnt stay then stu will stay till 9pm' which means i couldnt see her alone not even for a lil while alone... and stu has been stayin there till late for 4 days now =[ and i feel liek shes rubbing it in my face tht i cant see my mates as much... i dnt feel like staying anymore tbh cuz i feel like in a way shes not to bothered anymore... when i get tht nite it feels great jsut to hav sumone next to me, but i dnt think she thinks the same its probs 'gah anotehr nite havin to be next to her wish i didnt hav to' cuz she prefers to sleep alone nowerdays so i think ill just stop staying over and stop having her stay over...and stop seeing her so much too ill only see her i think now once a week cuz its pullin me down into depression atm...